So much fooood

I've been trying to keep up with running. I try to go every couple of days, even if it's only 15 minutes. At least I try right?

Smoking weed these days isn't helping with my diet. I'm embarrassed to say but yesterday I ate 2 boxes of those cakey snacks. Not 2 packages, 2 BOXES. I'm trying to control my binge eating, but when it happens or when I'm tempted it's like a blur and the only thing in my mind are those delicious sugary cakes.

Really like what the fuck is up with me right? God. I used to be a healthy eater with so much control, but these days it's gone out the window. What do I do??? Everyone says just in moderation, but usually once I start it's hard to stop.. nearly impossible because I can't think.

Anyway, today I'll try "moderation". I'll have a..... tuna sandwich with a bowl of barley soup. 267 calories for the soup and 304 for the sandwich. Not bad compared to my 2000+ snack of cakey treats yesterday. Fuck fuckfuck. Why do I binge like this???