Here's to a good weekend!!

I'm having a really great weekend! Lastnight, I hung out with the boyfriend. We just ordered pizza, smoked joints and watched movies but it was nice. Today me and a girlfriend went to the beach. It was so nice and relaxing. I love summer time so much. I can't believe there's only a month or two left of bikini weather :(

Okay. One last thing, I was looking at the Ashley Olsen photo again, like can you say INSPIRATION or what?! Like not only is this carefree and stylish, its comfortable, classic and AAAMMAZING. This is what I strive to become! Move over Olivia Palermo, Ashley's my new fashion-inspo!

Ashley Olsen

I am loving Ashley Olsen's style these days. So simple, classic and care free. Love it.

Abercrombie & Fitch

For those who don't know, I really really love Abercrombie! I've made a wish list of things I want to buy for fall, when I've got money.

2 Nights in a row and NO BINGE

I'm so glad I made it through yesterday without munching! I had a normal amount of food, I think!
 2 BBQ Chicken, tomato and cheese sandwiches
Coffee with milk
1 Banana
1 Sugar free Red Bull

Bananas are definitely a healthier replacement for sugar cravings. This morning when I woke up, I felt lighter and empty. It was so so nice. Today I've had coffee to drink and I'm making a pita pizza for lunch (a piece whole wheat pita bread with veg, spinach and cheese on top; then cooked in the oven).

I will NOT munch out!!!

Because: 

1) There's nothing good in the cupboards

2) I have will power!! :)

Rain rain, go away

Another rainy day in Ottawa today.

I finally worked up the courage to weigh myself this morning and the number was ugly: 144. Can you believe it? I can. Late night binges after work can really add up. Fuck eh.

Anyway, I'm really really going to try not to boredom eat or to munch out after work. Last night, even after that joint I didn't have anything to eat. My stomach was rumbling a lot, but I guess when you're used to it there will be a little bit of a fight.

Since it's raining out, I won't be going for my run. I'll probably do some yoga instead. Either than that, nothing is really new.

Crazy Eh?

Wow, doesn't feel like it's almost been a week since I've last written... anyway, Bluesfest last week was WILD. We only ended up seeing Lupe Fiasco that night, because Ottawa got a really really wild thunderstorm. It was raining and hailing so hard it hurt. The wind was so wild that one of the stages even fell down! That night even made it on Perez Hilton! Crazy eh?? Also, here's a link for the video on youtube.

Anyways, since then not much as been new. The usual. Sleep, eat and work. Blah blah blah. I just got home from work now and plan to relax a little before bed by smoking a joint and watching the newest episode of Hell's Kitchen.

Bluesfest tonight!

Wooohoo! Lupe Fiasco, Ra Ra Riot and Death Cab for Cutie! Gonna be an amazzingggg night :)

So much fooood

I've been trying to keep up with running. I try to go every couple of days, even if it's only 15 minutes. At least I try right?

Smoking weed these days isn't helping with my diet. I'm embarrassed to say but yesterday I ate 2 boxes of those cakey snacks. Not 2 packages, 2 BOXES. I'm trying to control my binge eating, but when it happens or when I'm tempted it's like a blur and the only thing in my mind are those delicious sugary cakes.

Really like what the fuck is up with me right? God. I used to be a healthy eater with so much control, but these days it's gone out the window. What do I do??? Everyone says just in moderation, but usually once I start it's hard to stop.. nearly impossible because I can't think.

Anyway, today I'll try "moderation". I'll have a..... tuna sandwich with a bowl of barley soup. 267 calories for the soup and 304 for the sandwich. Not bad compared to my 2000+ snack of cakey treats yesterday. Fuck fuckfuck. Why do I binge like this???

I don't want to be the fat sister!

Well because of the reason above and that I just want to get back into shape, I'm going to start running. Ironically, I'm using the Couch to 5K running plan. Because that's all I've done for the past 2 months! Couch couch couch. So today I gave it my best shot and jogged and walked for about 20 minutes. I've definitely have a longggg way to go, but I know it will pay off because I refuse to be the bigger fatter sister! I know I sound crazy, but it's just a little bit of unspoken sibling rivalry. Whatever.

And before I go, a little bit of thinspiration :)

Bitch.

Rainy day

So Bluesfest has started in Ottawa. Last night was the first night. We spent most of it trying to find wristbands. It was ridiculous! I woke up this morning to a thunderstorm so it looks like I won't be doing too much except going to work later on tonight.